You will always be my brother
I have been in and out of foster care for years until my grandparents adopted me. The same happened with my 3 brothers and 4 sisters. However, when my 7 year old brother was due to get put up for adoption, he became really poorly and we found out he had terminal cancer. With this, he was not allowed to get adopted but to remain in foster care. However, with 2 days social services got him adopted out, as he only had a few weeks to live, this meant that we had to ask permission to go to my own brother's funeral. A few month passed and I got my hopes up and expected that he would get better, but within weeks, we got told he got really poorly and wouldnt have no longer than a week left. The day finally came when he closed his eyes and slept tight. Most of my memories i had of him werent really happy ones, as i was growing into a young teenager, i was so moody and sometimes nasty and i took it out on the people who were closest to me the most, i never thought for 1 second that he might have been taken away from us, and i will forever hold hatred in my heart for social services and his adoptive parents who took away my last chance of seeing him again. We were allowed to visit him to say goodbye, but it was so hard as social services had to be there. I had to go to social services office to beg them to ask adoptive parents if i could go to the crematorium, after a few days i was told i was allowed to go. The day of his funeral was so hard, all his adoptive family spoke of all these precious memories they had of him and i felt like a complete stranger, although i am his sister. The adoptive family were posting stories and pictures all over the local mail and we found out that my brother had passed away on the internet, noone had to dignity to tell us themselves. i just posted this on here because im finding it so hard to cope, and even just typing this is sort of helping me feel a bit better. I had never lost anyone close to be before now and I respect and look up to all those who have and still carry on with their lives as strong as ever, its an inspiration. I love you so much little brother, no longer in pain, my heart will forever ache for you, intil we meet again!