You will cope!
I lost my partner of 20 years just three weeks ago after a very long illness. We spent the last year and a half in and out of the hospital. He was brave and tried to help me till his last minutes. He told me what to do after he was gone and we planned lots of things to make it easier for me. He took care of me for 20 years. My best friend. We were always together. I know I will cope but the sadness I feel is huge. I can't eat or sleep or even buy food at the store. everything makes me so sad. I pray I'll feel better in the future. I know this is what he would want and I know deep inside there is a new chapter opening up for me.