young widow

by Tunisia
(real life)

My husbands name was Hamin M Bridges. He called me to open the door for him he was outside. He was assaulted in front of me an shot and killed a few doors down. He was 34 years old. He was the love of my life. We had plans. We are having a baby. He died before he could find out it is a boy. Now I'm a widow at 32. Our 2 year anniversary is this coming Tuesday. I'm lost. Almost broken. Thank god for this baby because that's where I draw my strength, him and my God. I've honestly felt like giving up. Sleeping forever would probably be better than sustaining this pain. I lost my parents a year apart almost 10years ago. My sister and few friends are my comfort . I'm broken. I miss my babe. I mourn for our well planned , never to be, family. Hamin was really a good guy. A provider a faithful husband. He was my friend. I'm awfully lonely now. I mourn him daily. I get mad, enraged, sad, fearful, and I often feel lost. I wake up every morning at my sisters like "what am I doing here?" I thought I was done had my man, my home, my baby our plan. Oh what a difference a day can make. Thanks for reading my story. RIP my love. Hamin M Bridges 11/77- 7/12

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Sep 20, 2012
I am so Sorry
by: Stefy

I am a young widow as well i am 20 years old and my husband Cody was killed in january at the age of 21. he was down the street when he was shot and killed.

I was also pregnant, 7 months pregnant when he was killed.

It hurts everyday and it is that hardest thing i have ever been through.

I am sorry you have to go through the same, its not fair that someone can take anothers persons life.

my baby boy Ryder is the only one holding me together, he is my miracle, the only one that can give me any sort of happiness in my life.

I am sorry again and I am here if you want to talk. your baby will be your rock

Sep 10, 2012
young widow
by: silver

I can't begin to imagine the pain of watching the love of your life being killed in front of you. Losing him was bad enough.I am a widow of a little over a year. I was blessed with a good man for 33 yrs.I still grieve for him and probably always will. I am going to grief counseling beginning this week. I have cried so much that I literally made my self sick.I have severe bronchitis that I am recovering from now. I tell you this because,like others and yourself,you know you have to keep healthy for the baby.I can see how he would keep you going. The thing that kept me going at first was that my parents died within 7months of each other, and less than a year before my husband, and I didn't want that to happen to my children. Take care of yourself.Love your little one and tell him about his great dad.When you feel up to it you might start writing about your life with him. That is something I am doing.It is helping some. Nothing will take away the pain but some things will help the pain lessen.GOD BLESS you and be with you.

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