Your Little Girl

by Debbie
(San Diego)

Your Little Girl March, 2010

~ The seasons are starting to come and go
They’re never the same without you.
Time goes by with such moments of loneliness,
I still wake in the night feeling blue.

~ In my prayers, I ask God, so many times
Let me see my sweet mom in my dreams,
A hello, a big smile, or a touch on my hand
Maybe then I’ll find peace, so it seems.

~ I wonder so often, who am I now?
Without you, my dear friend in my life.
Your voice and your love and your laughter
So missed that it cuts like a knife.

~ I should know that your love is everywhere
And it follows me all thru my days
You said I’d always be your little girl
With those words I should live life with praise.

~ I wanted to ask you some questions Mom
I was scared to ask when you were so ill
Was God comforting you when you were scared in the night?
Did you know we were there with you still?

~ When you left us, I wanted to run far away
Some place where this loss wasn’t real
But “she’d want me to thrive in this life,” I told God
“not to run, or give up, but to heal.”

~ I talked to the people who’d listen
Of the agony that took over my days,
Dragging my grief around, holding it close,
Sometimes caused me to lose my ways.

~ God let you be with us for so many years
Still, I can’t fill the empty space inside
You always made me feel happy and safe,
Now so missed Mom, and oh how I’ve cried.

~ Can you see me sitting here thinking of you?
Can I still make you proud? Can I cope?
By imagining your words “you’ll always be my little girl”
Can only fill my sad heart full of Hope.

~Love, Your little girl