Hi, lately I feel like yo-yo. The last couple months I thought I was managing to move forward a little bit. My husband died 6 months ago. We were married 37 years. Our marriage wasn't perfect, but we had a lot of good years. My husband died in the intensive care unit of the hospital. Doctors told me I needed to take him life support and let him go. I did, and stayed with him until the end. Now all of a sudden, I can't get those images out of my head. I hadn't had those visions in months. Now I'm back to square one and I am having a hard time handling it. This last week was very hard, I had a meltdown at my attorney's office and at Social Security. I feel like I am about to lose my mind. I come to this site everyday and read what everyone has to say. We are all in this together. I don't know what the answer is, I just know that somehow I have take one step and breath at a time.