Zachary Ryan Shouse
by Thomas Shouse
(Phoenix, Arizona, USA)
Fantastic Young Man
I lost my son last week, July 12th, 2010, suddenly and unexpectedly. Even the Medical Examiner does not know what happened. He was 27, the most amazing man. Full of life, anticipation, joy, and at the same time facing hurricane challenges courageously, with ferocity.
Now I am lost without him. I can't even focus at times. I truly do not know how I am going to continue, no longer seeing him, spending time together, long talks, laughing at big jokes.
He did everything on a grand scale, big. Especially how he loved. He taught me more about love, how you go about loving. Loving every thing, everyone, every moment. Next he taught me how to bear a burden with grace. He had this gentle spiritual aspect, yet when he played, he played hard.
He accomplished what he came to this world to do. He is gone now. I know he wants me to finish my work here, too, and it may be a long time before I see him again. How long is now? The past is gone, the future is a myth, all I have is the here and now with memories, and a legacy of big things to do.