zack 9/24/2011

by candice
(nags head nc)



my firstborn.my son. killed in a car accident. my heart aches. this is the cross ive been given to bear. its heavy and im tired. the numbness has worn off and im left with a sadness that is too complex to put into words. i was told you dont ever really accept it, you just learn to live with it. it doesnt feel like living, more like existing.

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Apr 15, 2012
i understand your pain
by: Cathy

Hi Candice i m so sorry for the loss of your son. I too lost my son Brandon on 18-10-2011, worst day of my life one which i will never forget till i die.He was 21 and my first born and no matter how many friends you have and grief support groups the journey is yours alone because no one feels what you feel cause a part of you has been ripped apart from you and i know the pain i m going through it, it is six months now and people expect you you to move on in life, they ca never understand unless they go through it. Any way i will pray for all our beautiful children who are up there in heaven and hopefully one day we will be with them. God bless u.

Jan 09, 2012
Zack
by: Marie

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. I know he was wonderful son to you.
My son Eric was killed in an auto accident as well. Caused from someone not paying attention.
It is such a journey. Somedays I don't know what I feel. I just feel. Is it sadness, anger, sorrow. All of the emotions are wrapped up into one. since the accident I find it very hard to be with groups of people. I'm not isolating myself, it just feels better that way.
Sometimes I look at his picture and say are you sure your not here?
It's just not possible.
I'm sorry any of us moms have to do this, but I''m grateful there are other moms out there who understand.
In July I'm going to the compassionate friends conference here in Costa Mesa, ca. I can't imagine a conference full of grieving parents, but I think it will help and to be with other parents "who get it".
for all the moms out there, I wish you all well.

Dec 30, 2011
God bless hissoul
by: Ebtihal

Ahhhhhh yes it's hurt so much when u loos a child ,I li
Lost my son on the 21 feb.2011,coz of OD ,he was an A student a young man with golden heart ,he forgives everyone and do his best 2 pleas them ,,I can't still accept his death he was only 26yrs old ,am on pills now,,I want him back in my heart where he belongs.

Dec 29, 2011
how do we go on
by: Tammie

Im so sorry to here about your beautiful son. I lost my boy on July 24,2011. that is very hard to type. People mean well and it does help having people with you that will listen but it is your journey and it is lonely. I have wonderful friends that have been through this but it is your journey no one can do it for us. Its hard to believe people survive this.. I see that people do. But there is so much pain... Keep on writing and reach out before your toe's are dangling the edge.

Dec 28, 2011
how do we go on
by: Tammie

Im so sorry to here about your beautiful son. I lost my boy on July 24,2011. that is very hard to type. People mean well and it does help having people with you that will listen but it is your journey and it is lonely. I have wonderful friends that have been through this but it is your journey no one can do it for us. Its hard to believe people survive this.. I see that people do. But there is so much pain... Keep on writing and reach out before your toe's are dangling the edge.

Dec 27, 2011
I Truly Feel Your Pain
by: Vickie

Hi, my heart goes out to you. I lost my 21 year old only son in June 2011. Some coward shot him in the dark trying to rob him. Took him away from his 3 month old daughter and fiance. The pain is unbearable and unbelievable. He was my life and now I can bearly breathe. I'm having a hard time accepting it. My body feels like I've had the flu for 6 months and my mind, well, what mind? Your right it feels like I'm just existing, not really living, seeing the world in gray mute instead of the beautiful colors like it use to be. I know they keep telling me that I will eventually live again, and I will learn how to cope and manage/understand the pain but I can't see that just yet. I'm praying that is true and to allow me to accept what has happened. I need to try to be strong for my daughter, husband and my granddaughter. My heart goes out to you I feel every inch of your pain.

Dec 24, 2011
mom of Dimitri
by: Anonymous

you are not alone....I lost my 23 year old son 16 months ago to leukemia. I'm blessed to have support of family but it's still not enough. If you have a Compassionate Friends meeting near you I highly recommend them. They also have a facebook page. This is not something you can do alone. You need others to walk this journey with you. I'm so so sorry that you have to go through this.
Shirley in Calif - mom of Dimitri, the love of my life, 7/13/87 to 8/9/10

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