zoe my shadow

by adell
(monterey park)

ZOE Was my day & night pal for the past 3 yrs of my retirement. I miss her every minute of my day & I feel hurt no one else in my family says anything about her. I feel bad also because I should of taken her to get the lump checked sooner. Maybe she'd still be here if I did. Even though she was 14.5 yrs old.& I knew she didn't have a lot of time left. Her actually being gone is harder then I expected & I have trouble letting her go in my mind. Zoe was a 13" Beagle, always full of love & very affectionate. I can see her come bouncing down the stairs when I'd get home, and she would get so excited when we'd come back from anywhere. Wagging her tail, going in a circle all happy. I look at all her favorite spots where she would lay down & my eyes swell up with tears. She had arthritis & her little leg would shake, but she was always there for me. It's so hard not having her next to me like she was. I'm I over reacting? It's been 11days since we put her down, why am I still so sad? I felt less for family members who've passed! I know she's not in anymore pain but I just can't stop missing her. I feel lost. Even though I have my cat of 13 yrs still with us, it's not the same. I had to put my 3 yr old cat down 2 days earlier, but Zoe is so much harder to let go. I loved Angeleyes too but Zoe was so much more family. Love & miss u Zoe!!!

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Feb 24, 2015
Zoe my shadow
by: Doreen UK

Adell we all have different bonds with people and pets in our lives, and when we lose any one of them we never know how bad we will feel. There is nothing wrong with you if you are still grieving for Zoe, and there is nothing wrong if you feel less grief for other's. This is the nature of grief, loss and the bond we shared with the one we lost. Just like none of us knew what grief felt like till we went through it, we never knew how bad it could get in some losses.
You may hurt for many months but the hurt and raw grief pain will subside one day and you won't feel that raw pain like you feel now in the early days of loss.
It can be harder to get over the loss of a pet than a person. This is quite a common feeling for so many people as they struggle with grief. Taking one day at a time helped me cope better with grief. You will start to heal as the days pass and you will feel more at peace in time.

Feb 23, 2015
I'm sorry about the loss of your dog
by: Candace

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of Zoe. She sounds like she was a wonder dog. The relationships with our pets are like no other. They love us unconditionally.

You had your dear Beagle, Zoe 14 ½ years. I have heard that the lifespan of Beagles is about 12 – 15 years, so you must’ve taken really good care of her. Since dog years are supposed to be about seven to one for people, that would make her about 101 ½ years in dog years, so it sounds like she had a good, long life. Most people don’t live anywhere near that long; so don’t feel bad about not having her "bump" checked sooner. Usually once it is discovered that a dog has some sort of lump that we notice, it’s already pretty much become metastatic. I know it is still very painful. Dogs and cats just don’t live long enough and we’re left to somehow try to get on with our lives without them.

You must take all the time you need while you are grieving for the lost of your beloved pet. Just make sure that you take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.

We I lost our dear Chelsea, a beautiful Yellow Labrador Retriever, on 12/31/13 (I just passed the one-year anniversary), I felt like a widow. I’d lost my Co-pilot, my life partner. I felt not only the loss of her loving presence in my life, but also like she took part of my identity and most of my confidence with her as well. I'm starting to feel a little better, but it's kind of up and down. 2014 was my first year without my dog in 14 years. That's a good description you explained – your day and night pal. I feel your pain. What keeps me going that I know that I'll see her again one day.

My father, who passed away years ago, "visited," well, sort of "checked-up" on me after a rather devastating loss. When he paid me a visit, he and my grandfather (both passed away) brought along my pets I used to have that have since died. I was so happy to see all again -- young, healthy and playful again. Then I heard my grandfather say to my dad, "She'll (Me) be all right. She's just homesick."

I don’t know if this is helpful at all, but I do believe that we will reconnect with those we’ve lost some day in the future, even our beloved pets. <3

--Take care, Candace

Feb 23, 2015
Allow yourself time
by: Denise

Zoe is so sweet. Be kind to and cherish the cat you have with you still. Count on a year to get through all the major milestones / holidays without Zoe before you will be able to think of her not with tears, but just joy for the time you had together.

"Don't Cry Because It's Over; Smile Because It Happened."

- Dr. Seuss

Don't forget to say a prayer for the little cat you had to put down before Zoe... they are together now.

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