1 Stupid Night..
Just lost the love of my life, after 9 years, About 3 weeks ago we were sitting around drinking some wine and got into a terrible argument, She shoved me back so I returned the shove stupidly.(this behavior has never happened before.) Next thing you know I was handcuffed and charged with a domestic assault. I had thought she would be there to see me in the morning as it was silly and childish what happened, but she was not there. I get a court order for no communication, so I cannot contact her. Reading her facebook wall all of a sudden 2 days later she is single and has all kinds of nasty things to say about me.
The hardest part is I thought I deserved more after 9 years, I didn't realize the problems were too big to solve. Now I sit alone and in pain and just reviewing the relationship over and over driving myself crazy. Get over it my friends and family say, To this I say.. How??