I started dateing my husband at just 17 . By 18 i was pregnant and anyway went on to have more children . We have 3 sons. We have had a massive rollercoaster relationship. Its been real sad and real fun . Then nearly 22 years later he left me . We had split before but always managed to sort it out and if im honest i knew this time felt different . Anyway its been nearly 2 years since he left yet i seem to be still waiting on him coming home. I have cried every night since he gone and i have no idea how to let go. He was and sort of still is my rock , best friend soul mate . I miss him holding my hand and feeling safe. I just cant let go . Of course we still speak and see each other as after such a long relationship obviously its hard . We have kids too . Please tell me im not alone as at moment i feel im the only person in the world that feels like this after nearly 2 years of seperation .