When will I stop missing my husband
My husband and I met when I was 17 he was 18 we married 8mths later. We have 3 beautiful adult kids whom we were both so proud of and proud of ourselves for bringing up such great kids. I wont lie we had our ups and downs but we always managed to come back together and make the changes needed to keep growing and loving each other. I can honestly say I loved my husband from the moment I saw him I felt so at ease something Id never had in my life. He treated me like a queen spoilt me with breakfast in bed, bubblebaths after work etc, then one day just before our 29th wedding anniversary he told me he was leaving! after many questions and begging him to tell me who he is seeing he assured me there was no one he just wanted to be by himself and free!
The man I knew and loved had died! he left me penniless, homeless and broken i discovered he was in fact shacked up with a 26 year old! It is now a year later for the first time in my life I am living alone some days im fine others like today im shattered. i get angry for missing him he doesnt deserve my thoughts! ive even gone on a few dates but each time i feel guilty and sad i just want my husband! When will i stop missing him? when will i be able to let it go when will i want to? even after all the horrible things he did i miss him every day i would give anything to feel his arms around me and say its ok sometimes at night i can actually feel him beside me in our bed then i wake up and reality hits! please someone tell me this is normal and i know its not easy to let go of almost 30 years together but i just cant stop this feeling of loss and longing why would he do this to me to us to our family?